As I couldn't sleep , even I intoxicated myself with sleeping pills . I still sleepless . Earlier , I suddenly wanted to buy MAC OS book so I suddenly went out and happen to ask my friend gf as she would like to meet . Actually It was a last minute , earlier she ask me to meet . I thought I wanted to finish my undone task at work .Then I changed my mind .Suddenly think I need this MACOS book I cant stand having a macbook and dun know how to use it at all . She was kind . She even offer to help me buy the book as she is at Kinko .But I feel embrassed to ask for any help . Anyway , I was amazed that She was okay with meeting me at bookshop , she was dating . And we met .
I guess after meeting her, I found her sweet ,good height and very petite for a lady . I envied her slim slender figure .
We had a chat . Chat till I lost track of my time ,till my dad called me . I had to go home . And I wasn't willingly to go home , I enjoy talking with her . I wanted to continue . I guess we connect instantly .
After meeting up with her , she triggered me to think alot .
Marriage . What is this ? Does marriage lead to a good ending ? Marriage seem so complex . I feel and see many of my friends fall apart . She was strong . But this time , I wish her well .
Children . I never thought of any children of mine. I work with children part time and volunteer . And my dog is my child . whenever he is sick , I get very upset and hysterical . I can feel how she worried and how she love . Nomatter what , Mother love exceed all.
Family - Sometimes it is true that you will never gain understanding from your parents of what u are thinking .Like this morning , My mum called me and yelled ," Who called you so cycle to work again? You know my friend daughter whom is a doctor nearly died cycling . I dun know why u act like a boy .blah blah blah blah ....so early 4 am . U crazy huh..blah blah blah ...."
Then I realized .... this friend of mine share her family doesn't understand her .And Her dad passed away . I guess I had a doting dad who always send me to work everyday . SO at the same time I say DAD I LOVE YOU , THANK YOU .
So I guess ..after all ....Suddenly I feel a sense of connection to her. I feel like hugging her and say ," Gal , you must be suffering in silent and it would be tougher for you than for me . I only got shit ..i think at all area , my facebook Jxxxxx lady say I had problem in my rs, my work life , my financial ...I am good for nothing ...Always failure " I was hurted by her remark .I cursed ...wait she get her karma back and have sand in her shoes . See how she can judged me so easily . But on the other hand , maybe she just want to shake the hell out of me ,help me .But I just think Exxxx was nicer , in term she was related and encouraged me better . I really wanted to give her a big hug ....
I withhold myself because I just met her . How can I just give her a hug? I dont want people to think I am some lebsian or crazy dude .Although emotions inside me , I am crying for her . Well, I thought and flip on my bed throughout the night thinking about her , and imagine what would I do if I will her?
I sincerely wish her well this time round . And I feel we are the same ..why our horoscope ? Yah Gal , I share the same horoscope as you . A fortune teller once told me that Scopio shouldnt get married early . But Gal , I can connect with you , As scopio , I know when we fall in love , we fall in love fully and devoted . I know you have loved , and everything you did was for your family . Behind your strong front , I know there is a weak side of you . I have a weak side which I am not afraid to show you . And U too was not afraid to show me and to share with me to encourage me .
I guess I had a friend in her .
“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one.”SO Gal ... I want u to know ...... I AM PIGLET and you are my pooh .... :P
Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh?" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand. "I just wanted to be sure of you.”
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